We only live in the moment. This often sounds like an accusation. You shouldn't just live in the moment; think about the future, be aware of your responsibilities. Living in the moment is seen as daydreaming, as unproductive and escapist in many modern societies. For those who have time beyond mere survival in a capitalist, socialist, or any other kind of economy and can spare some time for themselves, the great driving force seems to be to leave something behind:...
Sometimes I react strangely. Someone does something unexpected, an uncertainty within me is awakened. How do I process that and how do I react to it, and what does "react" even mean here? So it's about expectation, a being in the world that anticipates. The future is considered predictable and is also seen as such. If I do this or that, someone might react in one way or another. But sometimes it happens that the other person's reaction is different. I...
An apple, a strawberry, a melon or a passion fruit, a banana or plum, a tomato or cucumber, a bean or grain, a coconut, and a pomegranate. Fruits want to be eaten, they want to bring pleasure, nourish, and sometimes even intoxicate. They shimmer and ferment, decay and exude scents, they catch the eye, enchant the senses, create desire and enjoyment. They are not entirely accidental. Fruits reflect a desire of those who eat them: humans, horses, monkeys, ants, beetles, birds...
I woke up from a nightmare at 4 AM. I was talking to Will in Apt about a strange irritation in my perception of time. I described how time was fragmenting and some parts were simply missing. It was seconds or minutes, and as I tried to dive into the time to describe it better, it went black. I screamed for help, I was blind, and I woke up. It was one of those dreams where I seemed to die. Immediately...
Sometimes meditation is quite simple and natural. I sit down, go into my body, become aware of my sensory apparatus and how my consciousness and mind deal with it, bring everything to a standstill and higher consciousness manifests itself, a different kind of knowledge, space and time, a different world of experience... But sometimes it is also difficult, and then I learn how meditation really works. I sit down, a chaos of thoughts and feelings spreads. It takes a long time until I...
Many have the idea that we live in a world made of matter, following the laws of physics and various theories such as the theory of evolution. This is strange, because matter as such doesn't really exist, E=mc² stands for this. I don't really understand this formula, but it symbolically represents that in the end everything is energy, possibly even just vibration as the string theory claims. Then there is the physics of the macrocosm and the microcosm. They contradict each other...
I read Sri Aurobindo slowly and with long intervals. Why not read a lot and quickly, absorb everything, and finally bring order to my mental world, which wants to break free from the consequences of rational monotheism? Why don't I give my intellect the freedom, concentration, rest, and strength to embark on one of life's greatest adventures? As a student, I once swam very naively in the Rhine, somewhere near Basel, where the water was clear and cold, fast and broad green mountain landscapes…
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