Game – Misstep
In the West, I used to think that playing games had to do with "games" in the sense of playing video games and that video games had rules. Playing a game means entering a space that is limited by rules, and within these parameters, the player can develop strategies to act according to the rules with the goal of winning. There is the broader theory of games, which has been applied to sociology and other fields, and there are computer simulations that test hypotheses based on...
Es ist Vollmond in Indien. Zeit für Selbstreflexion, Meditation und innere Einkehr. Ich habe eigentlich noch nie wirklich über den Tod nachgedacht. Er war für mich immer eine Grenze, das, was unsere Existenz negativ definiert. Die Endlichkeit wirft uns auf uns selbst zurück, so dachte ich. Ich stimmte hier ein wenig mit Heidegger überein. Etwas jenseits des Todes zu denken, schien mir immer willkürlich, naiv, romantisch, eskapistisch und leichtgläubig… Nur in der existenziellen Reflexion schien er mir sinnvoll. Die Toten…
I woke up from a nightmare at 4 AM. I was talking to Will in Apt about a strange irritation in my perception of time. I described how time was fragmenting and some parts were simply missing. It was seconds or minutes, and as I tried to dive into the time to describe it better, it went black. I screamed for help, I was blind, and I woke up. It was one of those dreams where I seemed to die. Immediately...
Sometimes meditation is quite simple and natural. I sit down, go into my body, become aware of my sensory apparatus and how my consciousness and mind deal with it, bring everything to a standstill and higher consciousness manifests itself, a different kind of knowledge, space and time, a different world of experience... But sometimes it is also difficult, and then I learn how meditation really works. I sit down, a chaos of thoughts and feelings spreads. It takes a long time until I...
Many have the idea that we live in a world made of matter, following the laws of physics and various theories such as the theory of evolution. This is strange, because matter as such doesn't really exist, E=mc² stands for this. I don't really understand this formula, but it symbolically represents that in the end everything is energy, possibly even just vibration as the string theory claims. Then there is the physics of the macrocosm and the microcosm. They contradict each other...
In front of my door is a soft, red sandy floor. It's swept several times a week with a bundle of palm leaves, and it looks beautiful. I'm still thinking about the same temple in Irumbai. Its history is becoming increasingly complex, and so I'm now diving into Tantric philosophy. I attended a workshop on this a few months ago. We learned a small meditation exercise that I tried again today: Choose two objects and look at them alternately, saying the name of the object...
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